This past Sunday I had a short presentation at my local church to kick off a month-long Missions Donations Drive for Keumbu Orphan Center in Kenya (Africa).
The presentation went great.
But on the days running up to it I wrestled with doubt and worry.
I worried about my accent, panicked when I blanked out as I rehearsed over the week, struggled with lack of confidence.
It was June 2013 all over again (for those that are newer here, we fund-raised to build a new kitchen for Keumbu)
Only this time I wasn’t worried about the message per se, whether people would respond and give.
I was worried about the vessel, it’s worthiness.
Hardest person to convince
As I continue to take the opportunities God is bringing our way, I am realizing how hard it is for us to stay convinced that we are the right people for the job.
Sure we believe that God is sovereign, we believe He can do anything.
But when things get rough, we have a harder time believing God wants to use us after all.
At some point last week, I called my husband at work and told him I wasn’t sure I could do it.
And by “doing it” I didn’t just mean the presentation, but all the other things God’s been laying on our hearts.
My husband gave me a few pointers on the presentation, encouraged me and repeated what I already knew.
That I am called and anointed to do the exact things I am doing.
He also turned down my request to have him do the presentation : )
How to follow through
I am sure by now you know that chasing dreams is not easy.
Talking about chasing dreams is easy.
But stepping out in action is not.
At some point your dreams will begin to demand more than you think you can give.
At some point your weaknesses and shortcomings will shout louder than all your strengths combined.
I am learning this one truth.
You and I will never stop feeling like we are falling short, or like we never quite measure up.
Because the truth is we will always fall short and we will never measure up.
We are are nothing without God and it’s in those moments of stretch and difficulties that our “nothingness” is twice magnified.
Yet these difficulties will always present us a choice. To lean on God who strengthens us in weakness.
Or drift and allow the weakness to define us.
Who will you choose today?
I pray that you choose God, even in weakness.
Thank God for our weakness because without it, we cannot be greater. He makes up for what we are not.
He fills us up so that we can overflow.
And with Him we can do all things.
Question – How are you handling doubts as you pursue your dreams? Please share in Comments
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